Next to Normal... MY LIFE not the damned musical people....

O.K. I am making a commitment to myself to blog as much as possible especially now that the summer is approaching, the show i am in will be closing in 2 weeks and i will have some more of the answers i require to move forward in my tiny speck of the world.  i have had so much happening i have not had the chance to stop and really enjoy the good things i have been so lucky to be surrounded by.  if i focus on what i do not have what i do have will fade quickly into the background of my life until i wonder where it all went.

GOOD THINGS:
Julian. 'nuff said....well no, he tells me what a great mommy i am to him and how much he knows i love him and he says "i love my mama too". so there

Adam.  Being together in a relationship that lasts longer than a few months with anyone is hard.  But this man has shared my life with me EVERY DAY since July 23, 1995.  A lot can be said about this. Here is the short version: He is the man in Black and really thinks I'm Buttercup. As You Wish.  All of this under the Joshua Tree at GFC. who knew?

My amazing friends....the REAL ones not the gossip mongers.  Those people have already separated themselves from me...and they know how.  If not i feel sorry for them because they will never know what its like to be betrayed in such a superficial and deliberate way. I will not be systematically dismantled like a robot.  I am a living breathing FEELING person.  I am done shedding tears that would be better served elsewhere.

My support family of those friends who love me, really know me and care about my well being.  They are also the ones I would happily give my closet to, a starbucks card, a ride or just a fun version of how much something makes me nuts "sherminator" style. that way they know i have their back with such ferocity that they can move about the world freely knowing i got them.  I cry with them, love with them laugh with them and go crazy on mod cloth and sephora with them.  I can also tell them anything and KNOW it wont be shared as a great bit of party information.

My niece. She is just awesome and I am so proud of the young woman she has become.  She has her whole life ahead of he and that is extraordinary....just like her.

My ability to get out of bed every day and try again.

I. am. thankful.

BAD THINGS....they arent worth my time to type.

More to come....mad love and kisses...dls